I've been absent too, mostly because of dark clouds hanging over my head that I couldn't talk about.
Cubby was around 10. He showed up here as a stray 9 years ago. It was 5 weeks ago that my vet sent me home with pain meds and said there was nothing to do. I've been devoting a great deal of time to him the past few weeks, and after he stopped eating I decided it was time.
We went for a long walkabout this morning and I gave him some Ace before the appointment. Peaceful, no struggle. He's not hurting anymore, just me. The world doesn't seem right. There's no big grey cat waiting at the door to have his cheek scratched, and I miss his distinct meow. I swear the rest all know I did it, they way they look at me. The silence. I know you've all been there. It's a crappy place to be.
Cubby was around 10. He showed up here as a stray 9 years ago. It was 5 weeks ago that my vet sent me home with pain meds and said there was nothing to do. I've been devoting a great deal of time to him the past few weeks, and after he stopped eating I decided it was time.
We went for a long walkabout this morning and I gave him some Ace before the appointment. Peaceful, no struggle. He's not hurting anymore, just me. The world doesn't seem right. There's no big grey cat waiting at the door to have his cheek scratched, and I miss his distinct meow. I swear the rest all know I did it, they way they look at me. The silence. I know you've all been there. It's a crappy place to be.
